Family Photos

Yesterday, Lamar and I took christmas family pictures. Normally, I’m the one who gets excited to plan and organize our pictures since I’m a photographer and all. This year- not so much.

I felt/feel that since we haven’t been able to get pregnant that there is a missing part of our family. I mean, I always say that Lamar and I both look pretty much the same as we did when we got married 5 years ago... the exception being my hair mainly... But every time I thought about taking pictures at the studio or taking a “proper family picture” I felt like it would be wasted because it was just us.

Just us 🌻

Just us like ‘oh that’s just Lamar and Caleisha and the dogs’

I said that to Lamar a couple weeks ago and he said,”It’s not just us. It’s our family. We are a family.”

And I could’ve burst out crying right there.

Being a family of 2 (+ 2 pups) can get... tough. I think I project my feelings about it onto other people. For instance, I feel like people think that “it’s about time” for me and Lamar to “start a family.” (This is obviously the post all about quotations lol) Well, I guess that’s not really a projection as I’ve actually been told that. Hmm. Anyway, if the idea that having a child means our family has started, then by that logic NOT having one means our family hasn’t started. That is what makes being a family of 2 tough. That is what makes it hard to see that Lamar and Caleisha are a family.

So I’m going to work on that. I’m going to work on seeing the beauty of my family of 2 (+ 2 pups). I’m going to take the photos and relish the simple fact that I am blessed with Lamar who will come up with photo themes and go along with my silly ideas. I’m blessed with a husband who understands my desire for a child and makes his desires for that child known as well. I’m blessed with a husband who will give me a huge hug and assure me that we ARE a family already.